At the first sign it begins the terrible certainty the doubt consuming   This time it simply must be it seems impossible to turn away now   And it will hold on till the end   So lift another page another life another day   Just to escape the dreams you hold inside your mind   The waves that crush the life of everything   That you desire and leave you standing in blood   Once the fear awakens it seems impossible to turn away now   Into panic stricken it leaves you all alone   To contemplation of all the ways the end will come   Your eyes they will not save you now   And to the truth you turn a deaf ear   Swallowing anything to quell   Placebo savior on your tongue   To calm the pain falsely gave into self-invented death   And as the chasm fills with ulcered blood and cements in the fear until the   Next time   Your senses seem unclear only one thing appears the prison safety that is your   Own   Quiet cold