I walk down my street at night.   The city lights are cold and violent.   I am comforted by the approaching sounds of trucks and sirens.   Even though the world's so bad   These men rush out to help the dying   And though I am no use to them   I do my part by simply smiling      The ghetto boys are catcalling me   As I pull my keys from my pocket,   I wonder if this method of courtship   has ever been effective.   Has any girl in history said   "Sure, you seem so nice, let's get it on".   Still, I always shock them when I answer   "Hi my name's Amanda".      and I'm not gonna live my life on one side of an ampersand   and even if I went with you I'm not the girl you think I am   and I'm not gonna match you   cause I'll lose my voice completely    No, I'm just gonna watch you   Cause I'm not the one that's crazy      I have wasted years of my life   Agonizing about the fires   It started when I thought that to be strong   you must be flame retardant.   And now to dress the wounds cause into question   How authentic they are.   There is always someone criticizing me,   "She just likes paying hospitals"   Lying in my bed   I remember what you said   "There's no such thing as accidents."      But you've got the headstones all ready   All craved up and pretty   Your sick satisfaction   Those his and hers matching   The daisies all push up'n   Pairs to the horizons   Your hands full of ketchup   It's nice that you're trying   The headstone's all ready   All carved up and pretty   Your sick satisfaction   Those his and hers matching   The daises all push up'n   Pairs to the horizons   Your eyes full of ketchup   It's nice that you're trying      and I'm not gonna live my life   on one side of an ampersand   and even if I went with you   I'm not the girl you think I am   and I'm not gonna match you   cause I'll lose my voice completely    No, I'm just gonna watch you   Cause I'm not the one that's crazy   Yeah …      As I wake up to a cough   The fire burned the block   But ironically stopped at my apartment   And my housemates are all sleeping soundly   And nobody deserves to die   But you were awful adamant   That if I didn't love you   Then you have just one alternative      And I may be romantic   And I may risk my life for it   But I ain't gonna die for you   You know I ain't no Juliet   And I'm not gonna watch you    wanna burn yourself out baby   No I'm not gonna stop you   Cause I'm not the one that's crazy, yeah   I'm not the one that's crazy, yeah   I'm not the one that's crazy…