I can see it clear now still I'm more and more confused   The ways of fate are vicious or is that just an excuse we use   And all the more I experience as these incidents comes by   Don't know if I still wanna learn the lesson for the pain makes me wanna die      I'm a man always very cautious before I choose, oh yeah   I'm a man always ready to wait many years   I have practically nothin' left to shred if I'd lose again   My prize seem to be to end up choking on my tears      For when the lights have gone out I seem unable to sleep   The pictures flick in my mind I close my eyes still I see   I'd give it all that I've got to make it go away   Nothin' can change what's been done nor what we do or say      I can feel it coming how it's crawling up from inside   Less time now in between to recover and there's nowhere that I can run or hide   I wish that I could scream and shout out really smash all things up in my realm   To let go of my regrets and anguish but tell me how to smash one real bad dream      Once again I have found myself awake in the night   And the days I spend thinking of something happening way back in time   I regret and keeping on having to hurt fills me with fright   What is killing me slowly just won't go out of my mind      For the lights have gone out...