Is it wrong to talk to myself even when there's nobody else?    I'm just checking out that I'm not gone under the water   Thrown on the beach like a seal ready for slaughter   Can't you understand that the way things were planned   It never worked out so I just went crazy   I took to the drink, like something says "it's maybe"      I ain't got no excuse and that's really the news   Got nothing else to say, that it's my way, it's always my way   I seem to be running away so often   I'll try anything once and that's the way we should be   But it's always the same getting caught up again in a habit,   A habit I just can't shake off   The way it always turned out   Can you understand it's the way I choose to be   Everything seems so easy this way but I'm going under fast,   Slipping away, am I so crazy?