You left me never knowin'      If we could have been      Though i'm alone and lonely      It feels like a spotlight is on me .      I stop breathing again and again      Cause i don't want to feel the pain      It feels like my ankles and my wrists are tied up      Cause i can't find the strenght to give up.      I hear my heart pounding      And it's just the beginning       Like the wind broke my window      The cold is in and never stops to grow,      This moment in time keeps growing      And by now i fear the neighbors door slaming.      I sit on my hallway floor      Cause i'm afraid if i walk around i'll see me in a mirror      A minute seems like a week      And i know i became a freak      Cause i'm scared of the dark, i feel its stare      And the phone keeps ringging but i don't care      Since you got me at the core      Now every night same as the one before      Any place too high feels like i fall      Everywhere i go feels like hitting a wall      I know i must think of you in past tense      And keep believing there's no chance      Now i'm counting each one gone by, and lost      I feel the pain they cost.      I must imagine you on the other side of earth       Either that you'll never be mine or you're not worth .      It hurts to know there won't be a picture of you and me          Birds flying away, i swear i saw them laugh at me !