sometimes when i wake up   i start to think   this can't be true   and i'm not together   so i block out all the days   that don't matter   and i raise my head   forget about what i did   and try not to think too hard   sometimes i get so happy   i hear things in my head   that were never said   i just sit alone for a while   and start talking to myself, i think   it's getting a little out of hand   try not to think too hard   i hang on the words   thinking how i blew it   with nothing left to lose   sometimes when i think about it   it just doesn't seem fair   still i stay prepared    and i work my way around it   i look deep into myself and think   this is getting a little out of hand   try not to think too hard   i hand on the words   thinking i blew it   with nothing left to lose   i play my part   it's not so hard   i just stay out of view