You can't hear me speak   'cause I am mute   I hide too many things   I need a place to hope   I need your help to hope again      You see a laughing boy   This is not true - only a mirage   I can't conceal my fear   I have to be sincere      [Chorus:]   There is no way to forget   I broke your heart when I ran away   You didn't know what to do   I was only a stupid boy      When I look back now   I never felt so bad   To know that I've hurt you   Is worse than to break   Is worse than everything      Somehow I think my sparks are cold and useless   I play a role in a sad movie scene - a sad movie scene      I'm so afraid of myself   I'm so afraid of being here   I say sorry but it's not enough   I'm so afraid of losing my thoughts      [Eldron, August 2001]