Without you I no longer swim upstream   Where are you when I try to fill the spaces in between   The red letter days and all the pain   And while I remain shipwrecked everything has changed      And I fall apart   With this threat of indecision   Hanging in my heart   This house can get so lonely   When the day grows dark   And it seems to be the night time   When I fall apart      Can't you tell the shadows no longer comfort me   I don't feel the need to cling to anyone I see   This fool's suffered gladly each and every day   I don't wish to reconsider, I wish they'd stay away      I've no care to count the stares that pity me   I'll wash your hurt away just you wait and see   For every rose you give her I'll give her three   But in the meantime I'll just wish that she was me