I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head   They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed   Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone   Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home   There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain   An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?   And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?    And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space         Hate me today    Hate me tomorrow    Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you    Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow    Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you          I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with    The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again   In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night   While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight    You never doubted my warped opinoins on things like suicidal hate   You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take   So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind    And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind            Hate me today    Hate me tomorrow    Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you    Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow    Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you          And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave    Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made    And like a baby boy I never was a man   'Til I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand   And then I fell down yelling "make it go away"    Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be   And then she whispered "How could you did this to me?"         Hate me today    Hate me tomorrow    Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you    Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow    Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you.