It began sometime last week   The feeling that most everything   Was changing for the worse   All the triggers pulled at once   So begins my ugly fall from grace again      I made myself delusional   A noble stab at staying upbeat   But it was only for a while   I tried my best to radiate   Through hurricanes and double eights   The pair split into two      I'm talking points, I'm up on high   Watch me walk the ledge   I am comfortable out here by myself   You could never reach me here      Words distorted in the wind   Landed softly there beneath the trees   Our trip to California   Don't say I didn't try to warn ya      Put down the cell phone and try to be with me   Did you see me disappear?   Like vapor rolling through the hills   And then the silence of your name      I never found the trust I needed from you   Everything you did was making me wonder   My biggest mistake was taking you back   Again and again      I couldn't forgive the things that you did   I'm glad it worked out for you   But you're only foolin' yourself   If you think you won't do it again and again      Sad attempt at poetry   Sad attempt at happiness   The sadness of reality   I'm okay, I've been okay, I stay okay      I took the bullets from the cardboard   Tossed them in my backpack   Placed a set of keys inside the grill   I locked the title to the house   Inside the piano bench   And my lawyers got the will      I never found the trust I needed from you   Everything you did was making me wonder   My biggest mistake was taking you back   Again and again      I couldn't forgive the things that you did   I'm glad it worked out for you   But you're only foolin' yourself   If you think you won't do it again and again