I don't know what's going down   I'm lost, drowning in this hell   I can't imagine losing this round   But I've lost my way      Waiting. Watching.   Breathing. Crying.   The cycle repeats viciously   While I smile outwardly      I can't seem to fight this pain   I'm down, living in despair   Shallow waters from this rain   That falls so constantly      Waiting. Watching.   Breathing. Crying.   The cycle repeats viciously   While I smile outwardly      I know that something isn't right   I'm sick of sitting home at night   And screaming silently the words   I dare not speak