When ends meet I confront my secrets    knowing they came from the depths    Of a one time broken memory fading    from the depths of a distant collage of sins    Remorse within this long held lie pushing for ever forgiveness       Clenching a fist to hold on one last will feeding on desire    I have clenched my fists and have asked for forgiveness From one that handles all creations and now I know it was all a lie       Beg beg beg for eternity the existence of humanity    Within another’s collapsing life into the world above us unknown    I look for the believers and all I see are haters    I look for the life in me and all I see is… Altered deception