staring out to space what i do best   barely at the table as i chew as i swallow as i spit   i forgot my english as the language that i often abuse   yesterday a blackout swallowed up the afternoon   yet i cant lay down   still cant lay down      because its so loud in here   i cannot breathe for you   but i crash and i burn   so i can bleed for you   and ill stay alive   just to have you   ill stay alive   just to own you (but that's the only reason why...)      picture your presence collecting your goal   asphyxiating on love and other pastimes   a piece of your traction i never get to taste   these limbs wont lift me off of this floor   its times like this i like to forget who i am   actually its more like i have never had the choice   yet i cant lay down   still cant lay down