Water is getting into my arch diming out lights - until dark  thought my construction was tight thought what I built up might stand the flood  stand the flood phrases bearing a questionmark are trying to board my barque  again I start thinking what could have been what might have been  if I made up my mind in a different way what could have been  if I made you stay again I start thinking what do they mean  what do they mean all these words like "but" and "if" haunting my brain  what does it mean when all the doubts come up again  remembering me: what should have been what could have been  what if I've followed my vision what if I've sat on the fence  if I took a different decision if I felt a change of sense  too many things I can't change too many setups I can't rearrange  too many unknown lamentos I'm singing of key should I've thought of myself  or of the pain inside climbing up the ladder I was put out of the stride  should I've tried harder banish my doubts! What do they mean  these words like "faith" and "love" bereft of their meaning  when push comes to shove what might have been  if I made up my mind in a different way what might have been  if I made you stay what might have been