(D.Gutter)  If it was up to me, i'd call  if it was real to me at all  if you could deal with me  then i'd fall out of our grace  and think of someway better  to focus all our hate  would it be too hard  too cold  feeling scarred, controlled..  come on stop the car  before we get too far  I'm not handling this well  beside myself  Beside the fact I overlooked  behind my back, treated me good  but what we lacked  and understood  feelings divide - 185  On the couch monday  there are no more weapons  so why go on this way  I released too much  to save us from ourselves  take in a bit  let out alot  time to forget what we've been taught  "alienated from a badly painted tongue"  is what you used to say when i'd act this way  -chorus-