i was looking forward to this day for so long    i had it all planned out    i was hoping it'd all work out    i was losing patience    you know it's never been my best trait    counting minutes, hours, counting days       then it dawned on me    unpredictabilty    i told myself everything's just fine    you worry too much, it's gonna eat you alive       i was looking forward to this day for so long    i had it all planned out    i was hoping it'd all work out    will it all work out       now i feel exposed    like a black light on the wall in a darkened room    all the dirt appears    you can see my fears    i don't want to let my guard down       you know i never had the feeling    that you would prey on my insecurities    you know i never had the feeling    that you would prey on these insecurities i have       why is this wait taking so long    counting minutes, hours, counting days    i'm losing patience       don't think this means i'm walking away    i won't let fear get the best of me    now it's up to me    i wouldn't change a thing    (DON'T THINK THIS MEANS I'M WALKING AWAY)