Im putting lipstick on my face   Would have never chosen this shade of red   Ive always thought that I looked best in pink instead   And I dont like my hair this long   But the last time that I cut it   You were so damn mad   And you just carried on and on and on   Ive turned into the woman that you wanted me to be      But thats not me   It never was   I was just holding on too long   desperately   but thats not me      You come in again at 2   And I do just what I do   I always lie real still   And never tell you how I feel   Yes Ive given you the right   Cause I didnt have the fight in me   To stand my ground   And build this love on honesty   Now when you hear the footsteps   In the hallways in your sleep      thats not me   It never was   I was just holding on too long   Desperately   But thats not me      Thats not me    It never was   I was just holding on too long   Desperately   But thats not me   Oh thats not me   Oh it never was