Worthless recluse   Bang, pow, steel, muscle, k    What worse, I'm alone    Grown the bane of not being interested in the plate they passed to you    All the pleasure spots in the city    And if I walk in, my person screams    I'm obviously out of place    My shoes don't kick one over the other    So much as they used to    I'm here, God knows it    But where are you    The object of my satisfaction?    But this solitude doesn't agree with anyone    What's my name?    Go, and be alone, and stop crying    Well it's not any fun    And I look at myself being busy    And I know I'm putting something off    What is it?    I remember being alive    In the cold northern cities    I didn't need to think if I were interested    Eight-thirty wasn't too late    And I look at my lonely bed    Where once in my life I shared it regular    Oooooh, the years, and the time    These memories that keep me going    From one activity to another    Well I don't know which is the real life    What I do actively    Or when my thoughts are lost in time    My new house, in elegant comfort, is one thing    But being huddled in red, blue, and orange    Cracks in the walls, wind whistling    I'll not ever forget    And your face behind the flowers    Somehow branded to my half-life    Which may take over yet    Consciously I play the game of making money    Back in my brain, is the cold northern cities    And the cold that makes me jump up and down    I just can't seem to kill this pain today    I can't afford to do me in    And it makes me wonder whoever is happy in this world    I can't see them, are they there?    The supermarkets are always jam packed, the acceptable way    I got a big frame, born with it, sure do need a side of beef    42 heads of lettuce, 888 potatoes    And all the apple pies my Mack truck can drive away with    Cure all, better than a bandage    Better than the blue    Better even than TV    Oh oh, here comes the pain    Break out a barrel of cheese    Yep, we got ours    Ooh, coming on years since I met you    Half the time I saw you    Half the time one of your eyes looked past my shoulder    What was there? Was it better than my eyes?    When you let me see you    Nothing looked better    Even, unfortunate or not, me    Maybe that's why now, I view myself in the dream    And finding myself, and it hurts    And the dream is more fun    Anything beats the pain of being me and knowing I'm alone    And putting off doing something, whatever it is    I guess, something, like    Living in northern city doorways    Heading north, to the woods, to clean earth (?)    Back where the police invite you to    The back seat of their car, check you out    Why can't I shave and do my part to build man's home?    Where do you live, man? Do you really live here?    Why does my dream keep forgetting that?    Power, let's build power    I guess it spreads the English language    Communication, no more tribes with shrunken heads    It's inevitable, it's my playground    But I have to be serious    Step into the car, mister. What are you?    I'm a little boy, I don't wanna be big    I'll act out my part, and lean on my half-life    In times of trouble, or when it's just there    What else can I do?    Except be a man, and visit ice castle    And live on rocks even if it is cement    And anything's better than all this dirt and grass    So far from the woods, give me cement and wall to wall people    Let me know where I am    Or show me the way to the woods    Wearing deerskin shoes, and carrying a club    Or walking naked on top the snow, light as the air    Black leather head to toe    With some place to go.    I wanna be where no time is the wrong time    Where everything falls in place    Like fiber-optics, ultrasonic waves, and control systems    Control is the name of the game    Lord God, let me get it down    When I get it to a fine T, it's gone    Let it build to perfection, and stay    Oh well, take off    Target eternal light, all systems go. Satisfaction    Maybe then this worthless recluse can carry a torch    Look, I'm a human    But I'm something supernatural    The dream gives light    Listen all you dead and dying    Don't be afraid    If it hurts, let it die    The Easter lily blooms    Its smell surrounds the table    An unforgettable presence, an ominous sight    The purple foil covers the vase pot    Casting reflections through the diffused light    Such beauty and awesome fragrance    Who ever thought they could remove this sanctuary    I don't like fighting, especially when I'm fighting me    I'm staying up late and I don't really know why    I hope I can live till tomorrow and the next day without eating    I'm fed up with eating for a while    I know it, it's only weakness    That binds me at the supermarket counter    Trading green paper for something to do    Blessed are the sociable, that say stupid things    And get close to their neighbors    It takes a worthless recluse to shrink from groups    It takes a half-hearted chicken recluse    To live among people    The best of them disappear    And that's what it's all about    That's why I can't make it    I'm not strong enough to disappear    It takes a supernatural being to disappear    I'm not that good    This human thing in me wants me to be a hero    I want people to think I'm great    I want people giving me so much money    That I have an airplane, a boat and car and house that's everywhere    And the network to support all this    So where is it?    Stuck in the dream, because I don't have the courage to disappear    I know it's the only way to salvation, but    The old nag human me still wants to play with money, people and things    To make a name in the world    Disappearing to God's eye    And away from the eye of the world    Is the big step    Weaklings like me have to hang around, and play, and fudge, and delay    For fear of the big step    I'm just lucky I even know about it    The only reason I do know    Is I begged god to tell me about it    On my knees, screaming with pain    On the sixth floor, in New York City    So I'm telling you about it    Everyone doesn't have to live in northern doorways    To take the big step    Or go to the woods, or ice    We all have our way to go, but everyone knows    Now that I'm telling you    That there is something to do    A big step to take    Into the eye of God    Play human if you have to    But at least know    And don't kid yourself    Behind that big piece of delicious poison    All you dead and dying    Disappear to your own eye    So that you don't see yourself    Live the half-life    Step inside the dream