I've been awake 'cause I don't know what to do   Theres such a gap between what I want and the truth   And in all of the conversations I've had with you   I wonder if anything I said touched you so you knew      I don't want to be awake   I don't want to be asleep   There's a hole right through me now   And I don't think that I can eat   I've taken all the drugs and drink   I could to calm me down   All because you couldn't do   What it would take to win me 'round      All this has become is a breathing exercise   And I feel like I'm exploding   With this love and this life   All I ever wanted was for you to see it in me   And to give me the reassurance   That I desperately need