Father forgive me for I know not what I do   I tried everything, but I'll leave it up to you   I don't want to live, I don't know why   I don't have no reasons, I just want to die   I'm a suicidal failure, I've got to get some help   I have suicidal tendencies, but I can't kill myself   I'm tired of this way of life, my patience has expired   I'm barely just 19, but my life I will retire   I went down to a rifle store, I bought myself a gun   I pointed it at my head, but I couldn't get the job done   I took all my mothers sleeping pills   I jumped off a freeway bridge   I drank three kinds of poison   And drove my car off a ridge   I beat myself with a bat   Put a noose around my head   I overdosed on heroin   But I'm still not dead   Death may not be the answer, it can't be all that great   But me I'm not into living, with life I can't relate   By some masochistic reasoning, I think that it will be fun   I want to start my second life now   So shoot me with your gun