We said, goodbye, tried a hand at magic   but we couldn't make us disappear   not a day goes by i don't wish i had you   so in a way i'm glad you're still here   it's a bittersweet victory   lovin' the ghost in front of me      now i can't laugh, can't cry   and i can't run, can't hide   what do i gotta do   what do i gotta do to keep you   what do i gotta do to keep you from doing this to me      i wrote a couple of notes one in love, one in anger   they're lying there dying in the dresser drawer   lived lounder than my voice   struggled through a stranger   he loved me til i loved you even more   it's a bittersweet victory   knowing someone else wanted me      now i can't laugh, can't cry   and i can't run, can't hide   you get used to the pain and numb to the sting til you can't feel anything.      you tried to explain, but i couldn't hear it   as if your words were my tears   flowing freely, warm and quiet   from the edges of my eyes, in my ears   then all that disappears      now i can't laugh, can't cry   and i can't run, can't hid   now i can't laugh, can't cry   and i can't run, can't hide      what do i gotta do   what do i gotta do to keep you   what do i gotta do to keep you from doing this to me