a hell of self caused pain  lewd paints harass me  no heart was ever caught and cursed  in such venial lust    decay of dreammade fear  overflows my tired heart  only disgust remained of sweetness bleeding  in caddish pain    loud rushes the sirens well  dark hales the sphynx before our guilt  our hearts trembling with filth  we cry forgive us our sins    tortured by god and crushed in my face  from our souls' darkened bliss  remained only a feeling of bashfulness  the day before in distorted glance    beating to bars of heretic songs  in despair and sadful grace  brighter the stars of forgotten hope  reflecting our godless sin    away you haunting face  with unamable fear  thrill of delight trembles the embers  of my breath    come and get me  you never succeed  choke the life out of you with pale  hands    I open it the door of life  and breathe the world again  I am  am sound and hot coloured life  still my blood flows  I am