She's laughing while I'm crying  She’s smiling while I’m dying  I wish I could stop   I'm so tired of trying  I just wanna give up  I just wanna let go   Cuz I would do anything for her   Anything to show  Show how much I care  Make her see that I'll always be there   But she won't look at me now.  And she's laughing while I'm crying   Smiling while I'm dying  I wish I could stop  I'm so tired of trying  I met her so long ago-  We seemed so close  I told her all I wanted   But there’s so much she doesn't know  She doesn't really know me  She thinks there's nothing left to learn   She doesn't seem to care I'm gone and that I won’t return  And...  She's laughing while I'm crying  She’s smiling while I’m dying  My very best friend, right?  -I'm so sick of all the lying    I'm so confused-was ANY of it real?  I can't even explain to myself these feelings that I feel   There's so many parts of me-  some good and many bad  Some that I want to be-but some that just make me sad  So many parts of me   And half of them are lying   The question is-  Is the piece of me that's laughing while I'm crying?  I think she means well, she’s helped me through so much  She was always in the picture of my life that she has touched  Without her along with me, my life would've been hell,  But now she's part of the pieces of me that are starting to rebel-beginning to give up…letting things slip away…  part of me that made me wonder where I really wanted to stay.    Part of me that's making me feel so sad-  When I know I really shouldn't  And I can take nothing back  But if I could I probably wouldn't   I love her for life-  No matter WHO says that I shouldn't.  And I'll always be around  And all always do what I can do   To help her through hard times and help make her dreams come true.  I'll always do my best   To make sure she's alright   I wanna HELP her  I want her happy   For this I pray each night  I love her so much   I just hope that it's real...  And I don't understand it-  I probably never will.  But I’m so so happy that-  She's laughing while I'm crying  She’s smiling while I’m dying  -but I'm so confused and I'm  So tired of trying.