By the ruins on the hill,  all painful days I kill  Oh those thoughts within my head  My mind welcomes the dead    Rain - stings my cold face  by any chance I embrace  Failure - makes my value for life decrease  I fight misfortune with hate  Strength is so hard to regain  This has to be fate  I'll fall like an angel from heaven    Pain - emerged with my birth,  if I do anything right I get burned  Storms - in my mind a hunger for death    I fight misfortune with hate  Strength is so hard to regain  This has to be fate  I'll fall    I gather all misfortunes  and conclude the path of life  Future is lost and so is my hope  The only way out is to die    ( Solo : Ã…kesson ) By the ruins on the hill,  all painful days I kill  Oh those thoughts within my head  My mind welcomes the dead  Oh God, where is my haven?!?    I step out on the edge,  watching the abyss below  Preparing with a deep breath,  as into the dark I flow    I fought misfortune with hate  It was so hard to regain  This was my fate  I am falling!    By the ruins on the hill,  all painful days I kill  Oh those thoughts within my head  Death welcomes me dead  Hell is my haven!!!    ( Acoustic solo: Sörqvist )