The things you tried to make me believe in  To live, give, love and forgive     I'm trying...     Never painless, emotional emptiness  I always keep raping myself this way  Just darkness, I'm building myself a mountain of grief  I'm left by myself  Noose of guilt around my neck  Will there be someone here to listen?    Self destructive, or call it what you want  Self deception, I do it time and time again    True denial, Am I suicidal?  As my pain mounts up  I really can't tell anymore  Now I am   I'm left by myself  Fed up by thoughts  Will there be someone here to listen?    Self destructive, or call it what you want  Self deception, I do it time and time again    Can't put my life on hold  I need to catch my breath    Self destructive, or call it what you want  Self deception, I do it time and time again   Halls of emptiness, filled up with my mistakes  Still rejected, all that's left is loneliness...    I'm left by myslef  Fed up by thoughts  There were no one here to listen   Regret     Forget