If ever you had said to me before   That I would live this life that I am   Living now I guess it's all so strange   To feel the way I do inside but   Have so much that I could feel some   Pride for in my life so why is it that   I feel like this      How do I feel? I've been here before,   I've felt this   Retreat to a place, a place within me   I need this. Keep it all down, bottled inside   It breaks me to torment again and    Torture me like it used to      I try and try to break away from all the hate   I'm feeling for everyone of you that's ever   Done me wrong. I need to justify the reasons   For the way I'm living. I guess I can't cause   I don't feel like I deserve it      So now the waves they have subsided   And my soul is bleeding I can't take away   The shame I feel, forgive me