well I'm trying to figure out   the things that I can't find   in my mind, so much time   the softest touch that eludesme somuch   and it's hard to play the games   that I'm consumed with everyday   I don't wanna say   what I wanna say   I bite my tongue again   all this life   with all its wasted time   the bitterness and the bitter half   I long to never know   my eyes see through shades of gray   now i'm starring at the wall   and this part of me will fall   I'll opened my eyes and I'll say good bye   to the side I long to hate   you can't distort my truth   please show me the proof   close my eyew and I'll say good bye   and finally started to grow