Everyday it's he same old bullcrap   I wish I could escape from it and you   Why did I have to wake up.   I said someday i'd start a band..   be like Kurt Cobain,    save a bunch of souls,   show everyone at home that i'm not a falure.   But I could care less about the future,   cause the future's dead as I don't care.      And soon I see her...   In the distance it's her...   And everything falls the back of my mind,   and I wanna start the band just to impress her.   But then... I do something dumb...      Chorus:    And I don't remeber what I said,   or anything that I did, even though I wrote it in my songbook I,   am dead inside, and so is all my life,   I crawl away for good as I play guitar   my mind splits in two,   now i'm not making any sence   any sence...      Too late to stop and tell her that I like her   I am confused, scared out of my mind.   Breathing in real deep,   scared to take a single step,   scared i'll do something dumb.   And i'm scared to step any closer,   cause I already fell down the stairs, as she   sat and laughed.      Chorus      And now I fail to be anything,   and I can't see anything.   I sit in my room and wonder if she   thinks i'm dumb, and worthless.   Then I write this song,   and dream of playing it for her.   Though I know she'd laugh in my face,   but who cares, cause i'm not strong   anyway.      Chorus