Everyday is a struggle between what I wanna say   And what I should keep to myself    And the words that manage to leave my lips    Don't hurt me, but they hurt everyone else      And I find myself in need of a pause   I'm not sure why, but I think that it's because    Of this desire to be what others want me to be    Which is nothing close to me      [Chorus:]   But I'll see better when the smoke clears    When the smoke clears inside my head    And I can listen when the screaming doesn't repeat everything I've said    And all that remains me and who I am at the end of the day    And this happens everyday      Everyday is a battle between what I wanna know   And what I don't wanna figure out    And everything in between in these thoughts of mine   That you know I can't live with out      And I find myself in need of a pause   I'm not sure why, but I think that it's because    Of this desire to be what others want me to be    Which is nothing close to me      [Chorus]