Hold me now I need to feel relief   Like I never wanted anything   I suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to   I'm so ashamed of defeat   And I'm out of reason to believe in me   I'm out of trying to get by      I'm so afraid of the gift you give me   I don't belong here and I'm not well   I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living   Right on the wrong side of it all      I can't face myself when I wake up   And look inside a mirror   I'm so ashamed of that thing   I suppose I'll let it go   Until I have something more to say for me   I'm so afraid of defeat   And I'm out of reason to believe in me   I'm out of trying to defy      I'm so afraid of the gift you give me   I don't belong here and I'm not well   I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living   Right on the wrong side of it all      Hold me now I need to feel complete   Like I matter to the one I need      I'm so afraid of the gift you give me   I don't belong here and I'm not well   I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living   Right on the wrong side of it all      Now I'm ashamed of this   I am so ashamed of this   Now I'm so ashamed of this   I am so ashamed of me