if I could write you in a novel    I'd portray you on a farm somewhere in France I could diagram the story    I could see that you escape    I could disguise you and drive you to the cape but I never want to tell you why all of this happened       and if I could send you letters    I would sculpt my words with insights    from six centuries    I could talk of my philosophy    watching stars out on the dock    I could argue all the finer points    of Kant, Rousseau and Locke       but I never want to fear anything that I say and I never want to stop you    or keep you from play    and I never never never never ever    want to run away    from my own life       one day (when there's fairer weather)    one day (when you feel much better)    one day soon (when it's so much clearer) one day soon    none of this will matter       so if I brought you painted flowers    could I take you to New Orleans for the summer I could read to you from Dickinson    on her battle with herself    and complain about the heat there    and effects it has on health       but I'm never gonna tell you    how crazy you make me    I'm never gonna be what you wish you were lately and I never never never never ever    hope you feel this far       one day (when there's fairer weather)    one day (when you feel much better)    one day soon (when it's so much clearer) one day soon    none of this will matter       sleeping on the hammock    and wincing as the rain's beginning    writing off the whole thing    pretending that I never noticed    drifting in the aftermath    afterwards it changes    all the suffixes and subtleties    binding me to latter statements    said in anger    said to strangers    stranger things have happened       one day (when there's fairer weather)    one day (when you feel much better)    one day soon       but I never want to be the one    you once regretted    and I never want to make you    or take you for granted    and I never want to learn it    or we might forget it    and I never never never never ever    want to change this       one day soon (when there's fairer weather) one day soon (when you feel much better) one day soon