Am I the only one here who feels this sense of urgency?   Am I losing my mind?   Do I need psycic surgery?   The pounding in my heart and the racing in my viens   Has become a curse to me      And it's an emergency that's become worse you see      I tried sex   I ate drugs   Nothing in the world was good enough   To cure this pain in my chest      I'm not gonna be happy again   No it never lasts   It's not worth the crash or the pain   So I'm not gonna be happy again      I feel like I've been surrounded and hounded by idiots in the first degree   Does anybody else feel like me?   The night is just a darker day that always seems to last   The day is just a bright nightmare shining with my ugly past      I tried gods rule   I tried the devils tool   And let me tell you   They got the same deal for you      I am so desperately vulgar with sadness   Oh I know   I got friends out the ass   But I can't get no where   I am losing ground   Without a stance   And I know   Oh I'm sickiningly addicted to sadness      Oh no no no oooh oh