Mother: Hi Justin! This is your mother it is 2:33 on Monday afternoon.   I was just calling to see how you were doing.    You sounded really uptight last night, it made me a little nervous, and a little,   well it made me nervous, but it sounded like you were nervous too.    I just want to make sure you are really okay and   wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication too.    You know I love ya. Take care honey, I know you're under a lot of pressure.   See ya. Bye Bye!      I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head    They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed    Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone    Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home    There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain    An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?    And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face    And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space       (Chorus)    Hate me today    Hate me tomorrow   Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you    Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swollow   Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.       I'm sober now for 3 whole months    It's one accomplishment that you helped me with.    The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again.    In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night    While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight    You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate.    You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take    So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind    And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind       (Chorus)    Hate me today    Hate me tomorrow    Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you.    Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.    Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.       And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave    Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made    And like a baby boy I never was a man    Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand    And then I fell down yelling "Make it go away!"    Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be    And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"       (Chorus)    Hate me today    Hate me tomorrow    Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you.    Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.    Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.