I thought it was raining,   but it's only the AC    running in courtyard.      I wasn't complaining,   I only raise an eyebrow   when I'm feeling shot down.      Or I...      Take a stick to me,   kick me till I fall,   swollen under my skin,   I am far...far...far...far...      On the playground I am   the only one at recess   lying on the asphalt.      My mother would die if   she knew I did this   to myself.      Don't tell her   Don't tell her,   I'm alright,   she knows I'm    her smartest child.      I'm down again,   my foot is on my head   I black, I black,   I blue and I red.   I'm down,   and she won't let you touch her,   anyone could see she's gone inside.   She won't let you love her,   nobody could make her open    wide enough,   wide enough,   wide enough.      I search for my place,   and climbing out of bed,   I make a little too much noise.      When I walk alone,   It's easy to pretend   I never had a problem.      And I try to rest,   but all I get is   bad dreams,    bad dreams,   bad dreams,   kick me till I fall.      When I wake alone,   It's easy to forget    I ever had a problem.