I've been racing for you honey   But you take your love   From under my feet   The very moment I arrive   I hold the invitation in my hand   You smile and I don't understand   When you tell me the writing ain't yours   You were the one thing I could count on   Even if your apathy was what I expected   Oh darling I waited and waited to feel your footsteps   And to hear your breath   But maybe I just wanted someone to wait for      CHORUS   You were ever in my mind   You were behind my soul each time   I held it to the flame   You were ever in my precious thoughts   I'd leave a room of angels   Just to be alone   If only to say your name   I never told you I needed you darling   Like a rose needs the rain   How could you possibly know how much   So I reach for your love   Like the moon and the stars   Ever in my sight   Ever out of touch      There's a spotlight of a holy kind   Think it comes from somewhere   Up in the sky or from some far off lovely place   But this light never ever ever shone on me   At least as far as I could see   So I sat in the dark and I watched you   Now I just cry to myself   When there's no one around   And I teach myself to walk backwards   Out of any given situation   Yes I can be graceful and try   Not to step on my train and   You don't have to say goodbye   But I'll be right here if you want to      CHORUS      Now I could paint your portrait   If I never saw you again   When I am old someone may ask me   If I ever loved   And I will speak but they won't recognize   My words, they'll say I'm telling lies   And maybe I am   Maybe I am   All I know is      CHORUS