You know I want to be the way you want me to   Big hearted and tall enough to cover you    I would break in half if you said it loud    Splinter out of myself just like mercury    I think it's better now than how it used to be    You were lying in bed and I would levitate    I think it's better here than where we used to be   I wish I could go out into the Oregon sun: to be alive in the day   I'd smile at everyone   I remember you back in '83   You were dressing insane, you were my everything   You were so different from all those other girls    A blind Electra in drag, so cool and casually lame   I think I'm better now than how I used to be   Always nervous and weird, scared most of the time   I think it's better now than how it used to be    Always up in the night, afraid to live in the day   Afraid of being afraid   Now I sit alone when you're not around    I read aloud just to hear a friendly voice    I see you scary dolls, they all look at me    From the corner of my eye I see them shake their heads   You know I want to be the way you me to    Big hearted and tall enough to cover you   I wish I could go out just to be alive in the day