i quit the carnival and moved next door   thought i'd had enough but i wanted more   so now i'm sneaking out at night   i clean my face and shine my shoes   and go where i'm not supposed to      see i tamed a lion once i stole his roar   stripped his pride away but he found more   so now he's out to take what's his and shove   my future in my face and scare me back in my place    so soon so soon you've got it beat 'til it eats you      see i left my flaming sword beside your bed   i woke to find it pressed against my neck   you wept suggestion never works   so now i'm trying something else   i shut my eyes hold on.. oh well   and i felt a feather fall a tree trunk split   inside my lying mouth played violin   he said you should give up your voice   before we both end up destroyed      i quit alrighthe purred good boy   you'll fall for anything when you're caught   you'll believe anyone and   i said that's not exactly true   only you, you do what you do      you awake in the hospital in a thrift store suit   you hear your lover's voice from the waiting room   you shut your eyes and pray for peace   think i'm not here this isn't me   this isn't something i would do   i know the complicated truth   a big top tent a firey sword   i make a mask of lions roar   but they're not real and never were   and soon she won't be real either   this is the life you went and earned   because you never fucking learn   you could use up all of your years   fixing the mess you make in here   so as her nervous dress draws closer   dress heels click off their approach   you clutch your chest and whisper    "oh no, what will i do? what will i do?   my love, my love, what will i do?"