If grieving was a feeling that I left behind   Then tell me why it tears away and sears inside   I'm breathing with a little bit of difficulty   I pushed everything aside and now it's closing in      There's ashes in the air that never make a sound   But I can feel that death and love are all around   I'm breathing with a little bit of difficulty   I pushed everything aside and now it's closing in      Love the one we can't ever really have   In love with the one that will never love us back      Amber (in ashes)