until this big revue    i thought i'd figured out   no release from the pressure    growing strong    confirmation from outside is a luxury    but without i have to dig for the reasons    found to live inject my life with meaning    suffering from pains    i needed a cure placed my attention    in what could make a difference    in my life all i wished for before    was a reason to go on    found in a tune hollow existence    a grim prospect secured a distance    and without i'm nothing    sometimes i picture a life    a picture i can't have denied    it with this therapy    i use to define identity    what's lost in me    to where i realize has how been refined    security's no option    invested all i had against recourse    accepted rejection by decisions    to ignore average life    i was always so sure    that the answer lay beyond the prescribed path    refused admission to my escape    provided the stage    i need to realize/confirmed in my eyes