reminiscence of the past brings a smile    friends come and go with every mile    these painted pictures in my head won't fade away    the colors seem brighter to me with every day       where's my heaven where's my hell?    let me out of this cold dark cell    i scrape the blood off my bones to tell you how i feel   abandoned and deprived of knowing what is real       fantasy infatuation    my heart is possessed    emotional mutilation    my mind grows grotesque       love is an indistinct illustion    for those who will never see    your separated from reality    by ignorant confusion just like me       i'll never be who you want me to be.