red eyed wonder why and how   i thought you would've left by now   so these thoughts can expire   so bow and reintroduce   what years labored to produce   these habits make it hard to shake you loose   because i don't know, i'm resisting   but you seem to go on existing   in the back of my head, can i do it again?   will you come back my friend?   hair brained   hover in my head   still and small the things you said   but reason speaks much louder   i think we've been here before   you know what i'm asking for   if you would but grant   my terms i can't ignore   i remember too clearly   too recent to forget   maybe i'll come around   but not yet