I don't drink to forget    i drink so i can suffer twice as much    cuz in this world of pain    nothing breaks the memory of your touch    what was i thinking    i should have kept drinking    to flood you face from my mind    but now it's over and i'm sober enough    to know you fucked my mind    love can seem like slow death    if it's not returned    you will feel your body and soul    start to burn with desire    and unrelenting pain    the tears they cloud my eyes    i bite my tongue till i taste my blood    so you won't hear my cries    hiding in my private darkness    i put you out of my mind    my fear of death being overcome    by my hatred for this life