I imagine you walking around in your apartment,   kissing that self-portrait I painted and sent to you  I imagine you changing your mind after swallowing  the last thing you tasted before the big sleep got you  and it cuts me in two    And I often wonder if maybe you found the light,   that divine, comforting light they spend so much time  on trying to find  you're like Jodie Foster taking off but nobody sees it  it takes the sound of an earthquake to even believe it    And they say "Hold on, after rain comes sun"  I think today, it's the other way around  every window holds a tiny light  take a look around, see what you might find...    Well, they're putting out flags tonight to celebrate the dead  but I'd rather do something to turn back time instead  a little late to say something, I know  but what the hell am I supposed to do  when I just want to sit you down in my kitchen  and you'd tell me what it was  'cos the last time we met,   it was like the whole world was exploding  riding elevators through that endless red brick building  on a day so pretty you'd think we were all only joking  putting on a show that would give us an Oscar    They say "Hold on, after rain comes sun"  I think today, it's the other way around  every window holds a tiny light  take a look around, see what you might find...