a cycle reborn and abused   pry into subconcious pain   find these fearful solutions   pride wears a mask of ignorance   speak these simple words of balance   losing tolerance... don't stutter a word   a kiss... a touch... a knife... my blood   progression... regression...   pressed for your time   my moves are silent   as i break through loses   i sat and looked and lost the days   no simple answers...   lend a spare hand   i'll leave behind   the darkened idea inside   a plague of neglect   to my brothers of the past   the struggle for delirium   a small white padded room   a cross-breed instinct   symptoms of a youth alone   left behind a soul-less behind   criminal in the eyes of all   slap to the face... for disgrace   a father's pride... fullfill this dream   i hate pride... not a part of my dreams   tension builds... idols destroyed   this instinct... release of all   glorify pain... for self high   hands of time... patient stride   teach others more... personal gain   these lovely thoughts   coated in silky sickness   a depressive contraceptive   for my actions   my body and mind stronger   at youngest point of life   let this tenderness i have   fall in flames   no release... grip... hold tight   the warm kiss of sensual delight   touch this smile...   the locked-down love   chained deep inside   a mistrust faith... i can't relate   lately i can't tolerate   repress myself... kept my mouth shut   no longer will i pain myself   i've got something inside   that i'll never hide   no drug-induced thought   not even an unsober word   my actions are pure...   make my discipline heard   i've lied here for the longest time   now is the time, make a stand   i push too hard, nothing too lose   will not get out... stand-off