I was lost and no one believed me   But he was not who I am today   All the bad is all in my head   As I waste my life away   Memories of realities with the   People that have forgotten me   And the disbelieve of a preached relief   Let it take a hold of me      My black and white, all so admittedly extreme   I break apart when I’m all alone   But what’s the use of giving you abuse   When I have it all my own   I see through you and what you want to do   You can’t fix me and I don’t want you to   Its hella bad for me to love a sick disease   It really puts me in the mood      I think I've stopped myself for now   Too far to trace steps back somehow   Been forced to fail, given a negative label   The tragedy is that I can see this    And I can’t just break away      Why do I not understand things?   Life is just too demanding   I want out sometimes   I have a problem that runs so deep   And that’s when I treat you wrong   Now see how fast it comes on