Dear Joan   I've almost forgotten the pain in the window   The blue dress in the doorway   Dear Joan   Help me remember the face I forget   And the traps that I've sprung      I guess I've grown tired   It's just what's expected of me   To tear your heart   From the inside to the outside   You know I was wired   I just couldn't help it   The hundred thousand times   I hurt you      Dear Joan I wanted to say    I'm sorry for the screaming last night   And the nights before   I've wanted more from this   Than anything I've ever known   Dear Joan      Dear Joan   Your face has brightness   That I've never seen   In the years that I've known you   Dear Joan   I'll pick up the pieces   But some traveled so far   They flew when I kicked them   Across the room      I know you believed when I said it was over   You stood by me patiently waiting and brooding   So deeply in love   With every face I've shown      Dear Joan I wanted to say    I'm sorry for the screaming last night   And the nights before   I've wanted more from this   Than anything I've ever known   Dear Joan      Once I forget   Twice I'm a fool   Three times I wrap my hands around your neck    While you're sleeping      Dear Joan   Don't walk out the doorway   Because if you did   I believe I could honestly kill you      Dear Joan I wanted to say    I'm sorry for the screaming last night   And the nights before   I've wanted more from this   Than anything I've ever known   Dear Joan