I live in pain, withholding lies   Suffering, found in my eyes   A chance to leave is all I ask   To disappear, never come back   Give in to anger, run away   But because of you, I wanna stay   You know I love you, without a doubt   But this is my only way out      And it hurts to wake up knowing you're not   Living for anyone   And it takes all my strength to fake a smile   And pretend I'm having fun   How I wish this nightmare would reach its end   And the dream would be more clear   So I could finally grant my soul's desire   And just disappear      Without this mess, I'll be just fine   But without you, I'll lose my mind   What will I do, who will I be?   Wish I could take you with me   Give in to sadness, fade away   But because of you, I wanna stay   Now I must decide which force is stronger   And I must confess, it's getting harder      And it hurts to wake up knowing you're not   Living for anyone   And it takes all my strength to fake a smile   And pretend I'm having fun   How I wish this nightmare would reach its end   And the dream would be more clear   So I could finally grant my soul's desire   And just disappear      And the light is gone and the darkness is   Surrounding the place   The promise of a better life could never substitute   The sight of your face   I'd rather live in torture just so I could   Be with you   Than kill the pain and never see those eyes-   My only truth      And I always wake up knowing I'm just   Living for you   And since I have none, you're my strength   In all that I do   You chased the nightmare far from view   So the dream is bright and clear   Oh, the friendship we will always have   Won't ever disappear