If I die give my body to the sun   Please don't cry   This field of tears will let me run   And the ? tell me where to go   And I'm stuck between the rain and the snow      I didn't think dying would be so hard   I didn't think living would be so hard      Waking up in the turning tide   Was easier than living in your eyes, my love   And the ? let me use its face   To tell you all of my disgrace      And I'm sorry if you didn't say goodbye   Yes I'm sorry if I ever made you cry      But none of this time was wasted on you   I thought ? walking in these shoes   But the water was just too cold   And your words were just too bold   And the summer came at early spring   And my lungs let out a breath and then I screamed   And as I lie here dying   You haven't lost a thing   You haven't lost a thing      These lonely eyes are letting go of pain   So if I die   Let my blood leave a stain