a cold cast thought...  shattered and numb  i've got this system in my head  standards and notions  of my own death  kill me... i've already killed myself  (a thousand times)  a devil speaks to disguise my eyes  so you cannot see  the knowledge of unkind  inflict selfish ways to undermind trust  stepped on only to be stepped upon  wishful thought to smooth out  high tempers in need  a doll an image for wrath to unleash...  the aggressor  helpless... help yourself  stop being there for everyone else  feeding the fake  take their medicine to feel good  frustration to the point of anger  no sympathy for your way  lying on the drugstore floor  an arm injected mindfuck  for the weak and impossible  damn the cause... fuck the reasons  hate everyone... hate everything  hate yourself for disrespect  a martyr for your self-gain  beginning to numb myself  murdering morals for power  repeating the past  in the form of consequences  instagate a broken will to think  treason of feelings spread wide  preaching problems... you're the problem  lose your stable temperance  flake-out on situations  another taste of sinful indulgence  take-out on yourself  take notice...  no sense of accomplishment  stop making blame  don't want to rely on someone else  stop pointing ones to shame  the hands of time will strangle you  unless you run  left behind to cry  about what could have been  demand trust and lied to earn it  grasp your actions before they react too fast  control... a tool that discipline maintains  swim oceans of pain...  to drown in hatred